Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Why am I striving so hard in life? What is there to strive for???

I'm tired of everything. Life has no more meaning for me. God is throwing all this at me because he knows I won't ever kill myself. But I just want it to stop... I want everything to stop. When was the last time I was truly happy? I don't know. I'm alone, I am forsaken - there's something wrong with me.

What is so wrong with me that someone who has the capacity to love just doesn't want to love me? Am I so fat, ugly, boring, stupid, inconsequential that I just can't be loved? I don't understand... I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!! I have no one; I am no one; I am nothing.

What did I do wrong? Everything, everything is just so wrong.

12:59 AM

Cheryl Kong

SNGPS/RGS/RJC/SMU/UVA

~*dancer*lover*dreamer*~




1. Go on exchange
2. Transfer to UVA
3. Visit the SPCA here at c'ville
4. Skydive & Whitewater raft
5. READ THE PAPERS DAILY!

• my sister
  
• my best friend
  
• my captain
  
  
• Channel News Asia
  
• Wall Street Journal
  
• Forbes
  
  
• Wikipedia
  

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