Friday, January 09, 2004
WOOHOO!!! :D :D :D
You are going to marry viggo mortensen.He is very
friendly and funny and has a lot of respect for
you and your friends. He is also very good with
kids and would be an ideal father. Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (10 results that have pics!)
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hahaha, delia will b so jealous ;)
You belong in the Disney movie, Pirates of the
Caribbean. Your life is a constant drama with
many twists and turns. But in the end there
will be a true romance.
Which movie do you belong in? clh
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get ur elvish name here! =)
[it's not fantastic tho... this other site i found last year was better *forget*]
bleah... slacked so much today... first off, pk (my ct n gp tutor) wasn't arnd so we had a 2hr break in the morning *GRIN* ;p then after abt 3 more hrs of lessons, sch was over coz fridays r my shortEST days *beeger gRinZ* =) so mummy picked me up n we went to check out hard rock. don't think i'll be having a party lah... it just wasn't...suitable. :( :( still, it was nice while it lasted. i suppose i could still have it at big splash if i wanted to, but it's not the same... no dj, no dancing...... bleagh. =(((((((( yep, so i'm just feeling thoroughly listless... came home, ate lunch then slept for 3hrs *WASTE TIME!!! go study!!!* now i'm still slacking on the comp..................... sighz.
to top it all off, my nose is getting runny *sniff*. think i shall go n run later... mebbe it'll wake mi up~
6:56 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2004
hello hello hello... feeling quite sian n restless now... yesterday's meeting for e team capts for SRRR canoepolo at SP has greatly agitated my inner calm (in a good way.. i think :p). like, b4 tt i've been all hardworking n efficient-like, finishing all my math, researching lit, doing econs n what not..! :) tt busy-bee, antsy feeling is pretty much gone now, chased away by my excitement for e upcoming triple-R as well as deciding what to do for my 18th bdae which happens to be less than a month away! *hint hint* ;) -grinz-
oh my mind is filled with restive musing
frittering on the edge of dream
yearning still for destiny's bidding
haunted by delirium's scream
oh please heed the stranger's call
for death, the pretty, merciful waif
will take me by the hand one day
and lead me into Hev'n's domain
laughing dancing singing screaming
catch me if you can!
crying sleeping wailing dying
and out of the house she ran
(sorry, not making sense, just writing for fun ;)
10:00 AM
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
Something van sent me :)
Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love
me after all...
Bottom-line : A person who makes me love him is
actually a person who loves me more than I love
him.
**
If someone comes into your life and becomes a
part of you but for some reasons he couldn't
stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad that
your paths crossed and; somehow he made you
happy even for a while.
Bottom-line :Time will tell. If he's yours he
will surely come back.
him..? yeah... i suppose so :p
**
Don't throw your back to love when it's already
in front of you.
Don't drive it away from you because if you do,
someday you'll think again why you let love fly
away when it was once residing next to you.
Bottom-line : Treasure the one who loves you!
It's not easy to find a person who loves you.
It's always more valuable to have a sincere
heart.
mr.E the genius?
**
The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks
we did not take.
If you think something will make you happy, GO
FOR IT.
Remember that we pass this way only once.
Bottom-line : Time doesn't wait. If you think
you might have found the right one, treasure the
person, don't let that person get away. Don't
let fear hold You back. Give it a try else you might
regret later... "No one other than ourselves
know what can truly make us happy."
**
"Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the
teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?"
..."I'm the teardrop of the man who regrets
letting a girl go..."
Bottom-line : Nobody will sympathize with a
person who constantly lets chances pass by
without making any efforts to salvage them. We
normally don't realize how important our loved
and close ones are until they leave us, and then
we start regretting, which results in misery.
Lost time is NEVER gained again
no regrets...
9:50 PM
Monday, January 05, 2004
The Winds of Change are blowing.
The signpost is spinning, swinging madly around like a child's toy run amok.
Frozen, i stand.
Helpless, i stare.
Waiting...
Waiting.
Something happened last night. I don't know if it's a good smthing or a bad smthing... Just... something. yepz. i talked to him, basically, at li's advice. and he mentioned how busy he had been the past few days so i threw caution out of the window, saying "oh, i was wondering why u'd been so distant lately...... was it because of what i said?" *holds breath* n he said tt he also wanted to put sm distance so tt i'd b able to concentrate on my studies (apart fr his own being busy that is). After a while, he also added tt bit abt his being buddhist n my, christian. which means he did understand my implication during that conversation. :p yeah then we digressed a little... talked abt buddhism n taoism... before returning to the topic at hand. when he repeated once more abt wanting me to concentrate on my studies, i couldn't help it, i had to say it...
"But how can i study if i'm missing you all the time??"
i have no idea what made me say that... it just kinda burst out from deep inside. n tho i don't exactly regret having said it, looking back, it does seem a little... over the top :p yes. it seems also like i don't really miss miss him the way one would miss someone you like... or mebbe i've gotten used to it i don't notice it? coz he's always at the back of my mind. but i seem to have... accepted it, somehow. interesting.
arghz.............. i'm so tired of just talking abt this n writing about this! bleah... there's so much other stuff tt i want to say... like school n ssc and all..!! but after writing abt this, i don't feel much like writing any more =(
dang...
10:26 PM
Sunday, January 04, 2004
we are in a limbo now... hanging there, suspended in nothingness, completely irresolute. we are neither just friends, nor more than friends. outside this grey space are the many possiblities that we could live on in, the multiple futures that may happen. And at this pt, i believe the choice of where to go fr here is up to him.
I have laid myself bare n made my choices which, for better or for worse, have brought us to this stage. Now it is his turn to choose whether to follow his heart or his mind... whether he would listen to the logicality of my words or the emotion behind them.
He knows i still like him, for i have not hidden it but rather, made it quite obvious :p. It really depends if he wants to continue liking me that way n letting his feelings go deeper, perhaps waiting for me and i for him... or if he would chose to stop it here, and now. making this... the end.
10:00 AM