Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Today was such a bad day...
Stupid stupid stupid me... OF COURSE they all knew!! Why won't they?? Why should i expect anyone to treat me so nicely juz coz i'm new or coz i'm me..? no, obviously not. i'm just someone else's niece that's all... not me.
Anyway, that's done and over. Ignorance is bliss as they say, and knowledge is painful. Still, much as i would have enjoyed being blissfully ignorant, i'd still rather know than appear a naive ignoramous.
Stupid stupid stupid...
Da boss wants me to do other stuff as well anyway... write reports as to what can be improved at the branch... take customer surveys etc etc... Stupid... Feel dem f***ed up lah.. another miserable long day and nothing much to look forward to.
Dammit, gonna miss salsa this fri as well... :( :( :(
shit i'm totally falling off the edge now. Working really sucks. And nus FINALLY sent their letter... just a 'yes', no interview, no conditions whatever.. how fixated they are on grades. Stupid too...
Sickening.
11:11 PM
Monday, May 09, 2005
i want this dress...
but it costs S$289 (after 40% discount).
dang i really want it!! :(
work now is pretty alright... stand in front of the counter, greet, help & direct customers... not bad :P juz lousy on the feet.
shoot. today's been a terribly loonnngg day... can't believe it's just mon. feel like the entire week has passed by already :p my thoughts r like disjointed.. slow and heavy as my faltering fingers.
eddie ain't joining me for the cha cha comp anymore... sighs. prob won't be joining myself either since it takes two to cha cha :P n i can't find another guy w the right height n ability... sigh again. wish there were a salsa comp i could join... that'll be really great :P
looks like i'm gonna have more time in june to learn spanish/french/italian now... not to mention, brushing up on my chinese while i'm mission-tripping in China :)
AND i am having GREAT difficulties booking another driving slot... stupid driving centre. i HAVE to get at least one more this month, so i can book for my driving test! couldn't get any in June either so placed myself on a few waiting lists but not holding out too much hope... July's a different matter. For now at least.
Staggering around in the dark
Losing all sense of myself.
Shaking and shivering,
Stumbling and panicking,
I rage out at the walls
and lash against the winds.
Emptiness suffocating,
Darkness entrapping,
My fears fall into myself
and turns into hatred.
Anger and hatred,
hatred and peace.
11:35 PM