Friday, June 03, 2005

I am disappointed, sad and more than a little upset...

Thank you eddie for not coming, that totally made my day, since dear porshee also decided to cancel out on me earlier on the batam trip.

Sigh...

Sorry sorry sorry... I just had to vent for awhile since i'd made the cake and all... Rui fen says i'm too nice to eddie and porshee thinks i'm infatuated. Maybe i am... the former, not the latter.

You yi has been the one bright spot during the last few days. He's talked to me, accompanied me, made me laugh and soothed me... You're a dear, you yi, i'm glad we met :)

Sometimes i think i'm so often disappointed because i have such high expectations of people. Li disappoints me most often but she's my best friend so i forgive her and forgive her and forgive her... Somehow i can't stay mad when we're together long enough to talk abt it and work things out. So it festers and eventually goes away, while others let me down and i find it harder to forgive and forget though i always do. I feel... battered, sometimes. Thrown about, taken advantage of, constantly on the whirl; with no safe sanctuary (physically & emotionally i mean, my spirit rests in God's hands), no arms to hold me and cherish me, nor voice to comfort me and tell me everything's alright, no one who's always there for me...

...

Cherie's friend ?? (e tall girl who's really gd at rueda n has red dance shoes) told me i looked good dancing with lluewyn... empty comfort i suppose since my heart wasn't in it. Thank you though, for your words are appreciated.

Today was supposed to have been good... salsa 3 rocks, but some things just aren't meant to be.

11:55 PM

Cheryl Kong

SNGPS/RGS/RJC/SMU/UVA

~*dancer*lover*dreamer*~




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