Saturday, August 13, 2005
I love him... I love him so MUCH!! Thank You, Lord, for bringing You Yi into my life...
This evening, I was locked into the corridor between harvey norman and the food junction at Millenia Walk. I don't know how it happened... One moment there were people walking past me and this guy asking me if i knew where the toilet was, and the next, i stood up to find both ends barricaded!! Long story short, I went to SAN Bookshop to buy a book, then read while eating at the the food junction coz i couldn't find the rest (my hp is being repaired coz the vibration isn't working) and when the cleaner told me tt the food junction was being closed, I proceeded to the corridor and sat down on the window ledge as i wanted to finish the chapter. As it is, i stopped reading at 9.30 (left the food junction at 9.15 coz i knew fiesta never starts on time) and found myself trapped!! The stupidest thing was that the corridor has 2 exit doors, but one of them was locked, and the other had this huge red sign on it saying "EMERGENCY EXIT ONLY. ALARM WILL SOUND." well obviously i did NOT want to sound the alarm and bring the whole building running, so i stood at the barricade blocking me off from harvey norman and tried catching the attention of the ppl outside. This took me no less than 10mins of shouting and waving, and when someone finally came, they allowed the use of the emergency exit to me.. This door brought me out to the walkway connecting millenia and marina, and i walked one big round to the glass doors at the other end of the building (which is closer to jitters), only to find them locked too!!! *sighhh* had to go down to the first floor then all the way up again before i could reach jitterbugs...
On my way up the escalator, I heard this loud "HOI!" and turned, knowing (don't ask how) that it was You Yi.. All i caught was this glimpse of him slumping on the bar of the escalator looking back at me, and then i couldn't see him at all!! I knew he'd be worried and wondering where i was but i didn't know he'd be THAT worried to the point of breakdown, esp since it was only 9.45 at the time he saw me.. But the tone of his voice frightened me so much that i ran from that escalator round to the other and i absolutely PANICKED when i saw him lying prone at the foot of the escalator! *hugs him tightly and doesn't let go* my darling, my dearest, i love you so... i'm so sorry i'm so very very sorry, please please forgive me... i would rather have found u dancing at fiesta than like that, anytime!! hugs hugs huggss... he was sweating all over and could barely breathe... i so wanted to call a doctor but i thought at first that he was mad at me and simply exhausted from worry, not sick with asthma!! I'm so sorry dear... Anyway, I honestly couldn't believe the depth of his love for me... Dearest, my heart, you are the most wonderful guy around, do you know that? You said tt brian would choose ning yan as his bf if he were a girl right? well he obviously has no idea what an amazing person you are yet..
Anyway, i'd rather talk to you now than blog... :)
God is good...
12:30 AM
Friday, August 12, 2005
Parable of the Cracked Pot
A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on each end of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it, and the other pot was perfect and always delievered a full portion of water while the cracked pot arrived olnly half full. The water bearer carries water daily from the lower stream to the master's house.
For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water o his master's house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.
After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, and i want to apologize to you." "Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?" "Ï have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because of this crack in my side that causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.
The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "Äs we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path." Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.
The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and i took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."
The Lord made each of us to be exactly who we are. Mold us and use us Lord, that we may be able to fulfill the purpose in life for which You have created us. Let us not be arrogant, nor deprecate ourselves, for we are whole in Your Spirit, Lord. And only in You may we find fulfillment and joy in life. Thank you, Father, for Your great and abiding love... You are my one and only, my Father, my Saviour, my strenght... I love You, Lord. Let Your spirit grow stronger in me day by day, that i may clearly hear Your voice and that I may follow Your guidance with sure and faithful footsteps. Give me Your wisdom, Lord, that I may minister to others and understand Your word... Give me Your love, Lord, that I may spread Your love to others and show them Your goodness and grace... Bless me, O Lord, that I may be a blessing to others. Thank you thank you thank you for all You've done in our lives, Lord God, for all the grace You've given us, that we may know happiness in Your wonderful love. Thank you for the pains, that we may appreciate the goodness of Your works and know that we can do all things through You, for You give us strenght. I praise You Lord God, for all the people You've placed in my life.. My family, my friends, my love... I pray that Your Spirit may touch us Lord, that we may touch others also. And also for Your hand, that shelters us and carries us through troubled times. Strengthen our faith, Oh Lord, that together we may grow deeper in love with You, as brothers and sisters in Christ.. Amen.
12:31 AM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
4pm at dhobt gaut mrt on thurs, the 18th of aug. REMEMBER!!!!!!!! meet sports camp group :D
-down to the real thing-
Oh i'm sooo full..... On my way back home from dinner with you yi's friends.. grinne... They're a really funny bunch, all the RI boys ;) haha. Kian Leong, Shannan, Brian & Ning Yan. I quite like them! esp ning yan... prob coz he's yy's best friend & yy has already invited him to be the best man at our wedding ;D Ning Yan's also doing med at NUS in the same batch as Li & Kenneth, so it was rather coincidental when i found out that he actually knows david * that david likes li & thus, by default, he has heard of li!!! haha! Oh well, since they're both gonna be yy & my best friends respectively for the rest of our lives, they might as well start getting to know each other now ;) *gRInZ*
Times change, ppl change, I've changed..... ~* Christ's love for us is everlasting *~ Li says i've become more uninhibited... She thinks it's because of You Yi but i'm quite sure it's a by-product of months of salsa :P Really, I'm not all that self-confident. I suppose it's enough for me that i'm not not self-confident... haha. I do think that we need to reign in our passions though.. Eg. when we kiss in public, it my SEEM like we're the only 2 ppl in the world, but that hasn't stopped the rest of the ppl around us from existing.. :p
Besides, I need to refocus my life on God... Don't think i've been very passionate abt my faith lately, which isn't good at all coz one should lead by example...
1) Read the Bible daily
2) Pray (communicate) with God more
3) Have faith!!
4) Love.
"All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."
9:32 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Don't know who sang this song nor even how the song sounds like, but i like certain phrases in the lyrics! =) shall italicise them...
Last Impression (Endless Waltz)
If there are glances that communicate better than words, ~i could look at you forever baby~
People can live on freely without losing their way…
Overcoming our mistakes, we realize what true kindness is
Together, you and I discovered that strength called love…!!
*I believe your love
Trembling,
we seal our wish with a sweet kiss
(You are here…) (So am I…)
Please don’t ever forget…
I believe your dream
A feeling that intensifies…
Turning affection into a prayer
I want to let you know this pulsing sensation, so hot,
so fierce… So far away…*
Strife alone can never achieve, not for anyone, or for anything…
This pure rhythm that I want to pass along to a young and innocent hand…
The warmth of the sun shone through the clusters of leaves --- steadily marks the passage of time…
This surely is what everyone wants to hold on to forever and ever…!!
**I believe your love
Never give up…
Stretch out your wounded wings…
Soaring up to the sky, you sketch an infinite
dream so far away…
I believe your dream
Show your smiling face…
Even though you are drowned by sorrow
If someday you want to be proud of
this irreplaceable present… So far away**
Overcoming our mistakes, we realize what true kindness is
Together, you and I discovered that strength called love…!!
*chorus*
The pain of tears shed for
an important person…
Spears through the earth… drenches the land…
This is a sorrow I want to put to an end!!
**chorus**
I believe your love
Trembling,
we seal our wish with a sweet kiss
(You are here…) (So am I…)
Please don’t ever forget…
I believe your dream
A feeling that intensifies…
Turning affection into a prayer
I want to let you know this pulsing sensation, so hot,
so fierce… So far away…
12:31 AM