Sunday, October 09, 2005

Ok i absolutely must blog now to say that I AM THE LUCKIEST GIRL ON EARTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my love, my love... What did i do to deserve you?? (haha i think readers at this stage would probably be VERY confused... but i shall explain;)

Not long after i blogged my previous post, i heard shouting outside my window! A most familiar male voice calling "Delia!", "Cheryl!!!" and i was like crapcrapcrapcrapCRAP! What the heck is he doing outside at 1+am?!?! What is he out of his mind?! I am NOT going to open the door... Absolutely NOT going to do so!!

I was scared, angry, stubborn and more than a little panicked at his coming along to ruin all my plans... I really never expected him to do something like that.. After he had forced the password out of me, I hung up the phone, turned off my handphone and refused to engage in any form of communication with him. I wasn't going to go for turns today, i wasn't going to see him for as long as i could possibly avoid doing so, but he turns up outside my window before i even manage to execute my beautifully, painfully laid plans!!

Delia wanted to open the door for him but i stopped her. I didn't want to open the door for him but i couldn't just let him shout all my neighbours awake so i called him. "Go away." My voice was firm.. Anger gave me strength. "Go home. I do not want you here and i am NOT opening the door."

"No." His voice was steely hard and uncompromising. "No. Some of what you said was wrong.. A 100% totally and completely wrong. I am not going away until i explain it to you, until you come out and see me. If you refuse to come out than i will sit here in the car till morning and wait for you until you do. I am NOT letting you go on like this..."

Long pause...

"Fine!" Trembling now with both fear and anger, i sought to put sufficient force into my words and my tone. "Fine! I'll see you. State your piece."

His voice was filled with determination when he replied, "Ok, i will."

I didn't open the door immediately, i admit... I dawdled, dreading the confrontation and ever so reluctant to see him face to face... Finally, i dragged myself downstairs. Took awhile for me to open the inner gate coz it was padlocked (it rarely is) but i did get it open and i open the outer door, behind which i could see his tall silouette waiting for my arrival.

I swung open the door and stood there, wordlessly staring at him. He tried to hold my hands and bring it up to hold it together but i resisted... I couldn't stop him from holding firmly onto both my hands, but i could, and did, prevent him from moving them anywhere else. So there he was, standing before me with the streetlamp shining from beside the road and casting part of his face in shadow; in the middle of the night in his shorts and t-shirt, perspiring in the humid night air; holding tightly on to both my hands and explaining fervently why it wasn't at ALL how i saw it to be... Why it was a total mistake and why he had to come rather than let it fester... Why he loves me, why he never wants to lose me, why i should just please, please, please open up to him.....

It wasn't long till i was tearing, still resisting his touch; then crying into his shoulder, his arms wrapped tight around me and saying that he's sorry for the bad jokes, sorry that he shouted at me, sorry that he made me feel like that... And I hugged him tightly in return, apologizing again and again for being stressed, for claming up and for treating him so badly the entire day when he only wanted to help me and love me and make me feel better, as he stroked my hair and told me it's alright, and that he loves me as he has never loved anyone else before...


That's... pretty much the long and short of it actually... I know, it's rather drama and so extremely wonderful of him coz we mangaged to sort it all out before he drove home... Can't imagine what would have happened otherwise... :p

My love... You're so amazing. I'll try to tell you more and not leave you in the dark... I can't promise that i'd do so all the time, but i CAN promise that i will never stop loving you, so long as you love me too.

Sleep sweet, my heart. I'll see you at church in the morning *hugs*

1:00 AM

Cheryl Kong

SNGPS/RGS/RJC/SMU/UVA

~*dancer*lover*dreamer*~




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