Monday, September 27, 2004

i'm frightened...
help me

5:16 PM

oh my.
oh my...
oh my oh my oh my oh my.
i'm shocked. really.
i seriously don't know what to think!
like WOW or like HUH?
i was looking thru some of my previous entries, no regrets, i said.
well, you wanna know the truth?
i've always regretted it.
i don't know why... because all rational thought tells me i shouldn't.
and that i'd thought it through (thoroughly) and it seemed, unequivocally, to be the right decision.
the only decison.
but why?
i don't know
and i never will now...
somehow i always thought that he'd be there, whenever i needed him...
selfishly.
afraid.
it explains a lot though, his behaviour, everything.
and my writing this is just an outlet for me to calm myself, to regain the tranquility that was so suddenly, so unexpectedly, shattered...
am i hurt? yes...
am i in pain? i'd get over it... like i always do.
somehow, i didn't expect it to matter... that i feel something is as much of a shock to me as what happened~
it's time to move on cheryl, long past time.
time to let go, move forward, study hard and be yourself~
don't let things get you down, nothing matters now, except the A-levels.
do well, go overseas and leave the past behind.
i can make a new life for myself! and with added incentive to do so now...
yes, i can.
i can.
no regrets...

4:54 PM

Cheryl Kong

SNGPS/RGS/RJC/SMU/UVA

~*dancer*lover*dreamer*~




1. Go on exchange
2. Transfer to UVA
3. Visit the SPCA here at c'ville
4. Skydive & Whitewater raft
5. READ THE PAPERS DAILY!

• my sister
  
• my best friend
  
• my captain
  
  
• Channel News Asia
  
• Wall Street Journal
  
• Forbes
  
  
• Wikipedia
  

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