Saturday, August 07, 2004
i was going to come online and bitch about the salsaII teacher but i can't be bothered now. stupid crap. can't be bothered coz i've run everything over in my head and there's really too much to say and i just feel too shitty to say it all.
basically, i took my first salsaII lesson today and everything went well up to the point where the female teacher (there were two, one male one female) discovered that i'm still in the middle of my salsaI course. after which, she expressedly forbade me from taking salsaII until i've completed salsaI. never mind the fact that i already know all the salsaI moves (and more!) and that all my friends are in salsaII and that i won't be able to do both consecutively coz of prelims which is one of the reasons i'm doing it simultaneously, she said it'll be "unfair" for the salsaI teacher (why? because he has a student who knows what he's gonna teach??! if that isn't absurd enough, a quarter of the students already know what will be coming up next thru friends etc). She also says that the classes are something one does progressively. ie, you learn salsaI so you'd be good enough to go salsaII. okayyy... the thing is, i already know salsaI and salsa is not like kayaking where you need the level one cert before you can take your level two. the only difference between salsaI and salsaII is that the moves in salsaII are more difficult. so if i can take it then what's the problem??? it's not as if one who has taken salsaI is automatically good enough to keep up with salsaII, nor is it always true that a person who has done salsaI is better than one who hasn't. so if i'm better than one who has completed the level one course, then what's the big deal?! and in the class, i was definitely not the worst female dancer. not even the worst dancer fullstop. some of the guys in the class hadn't even taken salsaI (ie. porshee's friends) and they were really quite lost. so it really upset me (and pissed me off), when that aforementioned female teacher comes up to me after my salsaI class and says that "it was quite obvious you hadn't completed your course as compared to the other people in class". like wth??? what a stupid hypocrite! i was able to do the crossbody turns when some of the other girls in class couldn't. granted i fumbled the double left turn but some of the rest couldn't get it also and she herself said that it takes time to perfect. might as well throw all the students out of class and be done with it! screwed up shit. even the male teacher had no complaints about my performance. perhaps he would have if someone went "psst, that girl's from salsaI! *growl* load of crap.
why do i even try? try and try and try only to be put down again and again and again... loony chickens. why am i even appealing to Harvard??? HARVARD of all places!!! what's the bloody point?!?!??!?!?!??! get lost. just get lost and leave me alone...
*cries myself to sleep*
8:15 PM
Thursday, August 05, 2004
tomorrow's headlines:
RJC girl guilty of third degree murder.
Kills classmate with falling schoolbag; claims it was an accident.
just kidding :p it's just that everytime i balance my schoolbag on the railing, struggling to pack/remove items from my bag, that horrifying scenario of dropping my schoolbag, possibly on someone's head, would flash through my head in slow motion, followed by a piercing scream and me shouting "oh my god! did i kill someone?!??!" lol...paranoid, i know :p well it's never happened and you should pray that it doesn't or my next victim might be you!! (muahahahahaha) grinz. fyi, i never pack my bag ;) haha!
on a different note, has anyone noticed anything different about alvin recently?? possibly since his breakup with py?? i don't know how to describe it. He seems to be more... subdued, somehow. painstakingly nice and overwhelmingly sweet. not that that's a bad thing or that i'm complaining... it's not! i'm not! :P just that... i miss the old alvin.. the alvin who tells hilarioulsly witty jokes (but never means it); the alvin who would make disgustingly stupid bets like claiming he can eat more chilli than yee yen (he lost, of course, but drank half my bottle of water trying to prove it!) or jumping off the spectators gallery for S50; the bring-it-on, in-your-face alvin who's amazingly sensitive and astute and who always cracks me up... yes. i miss that alvin. the new alvin... confuses me :P it's not that he's changed so much as came to terms with himself. it's like that daredevil veneer he had last year has, curiously, been absorbed or made milder by the rest of him. and if you don't know alvin, he's happens to be good-looking to boot! *wry look* maybe it's the transition from j1 to j2 and his having matured from the transition that has so moderated him. perhaps he's in his 'studying mode' and the mellowing of his character has only minimally to do with py (part of the maturation process) ~dunno~ reminds me a little of cheng yu and his 'before' and 'after' ns personality haha. i'm just concerned anyway, and a little puzzled as to how to treat him :p ..... just hope he's okay... take care alvin! don't stress! =)
8:44 PM
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
you know what? i think i'm gonna write a book. a real book, one that will be published and sold on shelves. Just not (i hope) in the 'local authors' section, which is a surefire way to not sell any books :p it's just a thought though... been writing stories since ages ago (though i never finish them) so i figured aft A-levels would be a good time to start... after all, there'll be half a year before my all new, nus/smu boring university life begins (thereabouts) and i shall spend that time (a) dancing, (b) going out with friends, (c) working -somewhere interesting i hope- and (d) writing :) :) :)
first though, i must get past the A levels which, frankly, is scaring the s*** out of me ;p damn... i've done a total of 2 maths tutorial questions, 1 gp essay outline, 1/2 of an econs drq in two long weeks! and i have just remembered that i have an urban geog test tomorrow, which, suffice to say, i have not studied for. ARGH!
gotta go study...
--> realise i'm writing in the style of Bridget Jones Diary (which i just borrowed today but have already finished reading *goes to show how much work i've been doing, ie nil.*) minus the alcohol/cigarette/calorie counting, tho i'm tempted to do the last, except i can't be bothered to find out the exact calorie of a rambutan or whatever else i've been snacking on. bah and double bah :p
haha.
(hope gavin's alright, he seems to be in a worse funk than me... i'm convinced that it stems from army life ;p)
... oh dear, the 40 odd rambutans i ate seem rather discontent in my tummy... perhaps they are dire enemies with veggies,rice&tofu and resent sharing the limited (albeit expansive) space with a mango seed :P *muses*
smile. .:beautifically ignores responsibilities in order to avoid massive breakdown:.
9:30 PM
Monday, August 02, 2004
wheeeeeee.......!! I have found the studying *feel* :D :D :D going to start studying as of today! (hope i'm not too late) weird to see no one online, no one updating blogs, no one going out to watch movies, when i've done all that and more! well not anymore my fishies! we are gonna sttuudddyyyyyyyyyyy nyahahahahahahaha *manical laughter*
(see the difference btwn 'normalty' and 'studying'? studying's bad for your brain, i say *shakes head despairingly* when will the singapore government realise that?!)
11:30 AM
Sunday, August 01, 2004
he's attached. sort of anyway. *relieved* and the girl's nice and sweet so i can't bitch abt her *more relieved*
yes.
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9:56 PM