Friday, February 08, 2008
I am teetering... On the edge of what, I'm not entirely sure =/
My birthday was so much more than I expected it to be!! :D I got presents from basically everyone! Haha... First, Martin gave me an orange nike t-shirt and sang happy birthday to me while playing the guitar :) Second, I received my own present from victoria's secrets. Then I got you yi's card as well as a letter from the school placing me on the Dean's List -grin- (for some reason i also got $2 from the health services in the mail). At around 3am, Yi-xian called!! (totally unexpected and totally lifted me up!) Yeah, I didn't think he'd call... Esp since he was on skype but never said anything to me. Soooo I still have no idea what's going on in that dense skull of his, but whatever!
Then today, I got about 50 wall posts wishing me happy birthday! That was really touching, because I really expected my bday to go by quietly... :P Oh Bear Stearns also gave me a present by postponing the interview!! Haha. So the classes I was excused from because of that also became a pseudo present. All of which are really just gifts from God! Rolled together to make the day a happy, restful day for me :) Thank You, Lord.
So it feels as if something is about to change for the better... But I don't know what, and I dare not hope :S
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Monday, February 04, 2008
Bastard. BastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastard.
ARGH. Okay, indifference and moral high ground. *repeats mantra to self* I will stop loving him soon... I just need to be patient. It'd go away!! So what if he takes free condoms and the mouth protection thing? So what if he goes to club 216 and dances/makes out/bring home bisexual girls? NOT MY DAI JI. F***er.
I will get a good, exciting job. Do well this semester and forget the past year happened.
Please Lord... Please continue to give me strength! I need you :( Guide me during my interviews this week and lead me to where You want me to be. I trust You, God. Please be with me and lift me in Your arms. Comfort me, give me peace and make me whole. I love You, Lord. Amen.
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