Saturday, May 03, 2003
haha, i feel so much better now...
everything's settled. we kinda talked it over and decided to give it time :P so actually, nothing's settled but it HAS stopped jumping up and down and round and round... And for that, I am grateful :) juz in case u din noe, i'm talking abt mr.cheena. lol =)
1:49 AM
Thursday, May 01, 2003
Beyond This
Beyond this hangs a shroud of tears,
draped, silver tangled in its humblest hue;
a pall of memories, torn of years:
heartless in the heart’s finest dew.
Beyond this is where it lies,
made ruddy in its rise of faith;
an extension of hands joined, beautified;
where mist clouds the face
hemmed with the skeletal scars of wet eyes -
flood a water purest in dreams;
whose descent is a mournful embrace,
drained, sufficient in its supply
of denial. Beyond this
is a light, an innocent, admiring praise.
this is beautiful :) have i mentioned tt i'm a lit student?? ;p
10:43 PM
yay, met li today at our pathetic 'ex-class gathering' which basically consisted of the both of us :P walked along the beach... told her abt everything and the j2 guy i'm having problems with got tagged 'bastard' lol... i'm not naming names coz sOm3oNe reading this might know who/what i'm talking abt and tt won't b very pleasant :P nopez!
my other friend who likes mr.bastard too said she waz talking to him n said smthing abt a poSsibiLitY~ tt he likes me back... wateva. i don't care anymore... why do i even try!? bleah. besides, i don't want mr.bastard to come in the way of our friendship :) sooooo... yeah. i juz realised i shouldn't call him bastard coz he's not really... still... what should i call him when referring to him?? ermz... okay, let's refer to him as 'cheena' -grinz- n his friend shall b 'genius' ;) haha.
took some emode signature colour test. apparently i'm a golden sunrise, a vivacious, positive colour tt lights up any room :P so ppl r supposed to light up when i enter the room coz i've got a sunny disposition n i spread smiles, laughter n sunshine in my wake... hah. mebbe usually this might b true, but doesn't seem like it from what u've read so far right? :| far from it, i think the sun has gone from my life n it's raining... showering in fact.. the kind that leaves heavy gray clouds in the sky so u can't see the stars at night :(
10:20 PM
i hurt so much inside... why am i so STUPID?!?!?
............................ sux.................. lonely... :(
12:14 AM
Monday, April 28, 2003
u r my sunshine after e rain... u r e cure against my fears and my pains... Cos i'm losing my mind when u r not around... It's all bcos of u...
he sent this to me via sms today... why must he be so darn sweet?!?!? argh! i don't like him that way. and that's really sad coz i want to, but i just can't :( no chemistry :P he IS very very nice though........ sigh.
3:44 PM
Sunday, April 27, 2003
Heya~
juz typing this so my blog will get published... ;p
hmm... a thought for those who read this: love is pain.
Don't believe all that shit that ppl tell you abt how love is happines. love is pain.
3:47 PM