Friday, May 16, 2003
I feel a sense of doom in the depths of my soul
A heavy cloud of despair and misery brushing the top of my head, just waiting to descend upon me
There is a fog around me, thickening, thickening.
I can't see in front of me, i can't see around me, there's no way out
A fog of fear.
My mum is coming to school to see all my teachers. Now. In half an hour she'll be here. And after that, I won't..
9:16 AM
sighz... yesterday was shit... today's probably gonna be shittier... blah, in school now, gonna take blue slip.. feel dem sick :(
yeah, on wed e new exco for ssc was selected. andee's capt, alvin's v-capt, theresa's secretary, eesang's treasurer n i'm publicity head. I hate it. I think having an exco sux. already, it feels vastly different from say... the beginning of the week. heck, i'd say things had already begun to feel different when e j2s announced tt they'll be "observing future leaders" during e camp. Then there was nominations etc... liaoz. Now it seems as if e rest of e club differs to us, n that really sucks!! Things were MUCH better when everyone was on an equal footing and progressed and encouraged each other together... Argh! -kicks all election processes- :( :( :(
den we had a sleepover at my house. That was quite fun lah, esp when we started playing 'men r from mars n women r from venus' and twister... :) alvin, tracy, cheng yu, cai fong n kenneth stayed over. alvin brought mahjong tiles so we started playing mahjong. haha, we onli stopped playing coz i lost all my money (chips) to alvin!!!!! haha!! that would be like.. the second time i've played mahjong and the first time with tiles... :P lol.
hmm, i'll continue on the next day when i get home later.. really want to go home now :| haiz!!
8:25 AM
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
DANIEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why r u reading my blog?!?!?!?!??!?! bah! -kicks daniel where it hUrTs- *satisfied grin*
Aniwae.... have I mentioned how much i LOVE ~sSc~???? -=sMilEz=-
Haha, am playing pacman in the library in the canoepolo website... alvin got kicked out when he did this.. lol. Shows how much sKiLL~ u need to do this... ;) -gRInz-
Oh and I've been doing more emode tests!! :D bleah... e zodiac matchmaker test has matched mi to a cancer :P cheena is a taurus n genius is a virgo... neither of whom an aquarian like me is supposed to get along with in a romantic relationship... siGhz~ ah WELL... :)
while i'm at it, i might as well update you... cheena has "confirmed" tt genius is REALLY going for me (according to his so-called 'gut' feeling aniwae :P) and his (cheena's) arguement in support of his bowels is that they're best friends, so HE should know. Bah, waDeVa~
btw. i'm soo amazed at myself... do you know i've done all my maths assignments by MySeLf and handed up my chinese work???!? (i'm talking abt recently). Haha!! They seem to be influencing/inspiring/encouraging me somewhat................. lolness... =P
hey check out this poem:
UNCONQUERABLE
OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul
William Ernest Henley
1:50 PM