Saturday, July 02, 2005
Haha, being a girlfriend is stranger than i thought.... Lol. For one thing, what mummy says abt guys shying away from already taken girls and the detrimental effect on my social circle seems totally untrue! Quite the reverse in fact!! Hahaha
Of course, i think some guys won't ask me to dance if i stood leaning against You Yi with his arms around me - which we did during fiesta - but i say some coz one guy actually did!! Haha! How 'da4 dan3'!! *grinz* i feel closer to my friends even... coz they'd tease me, advise me & generally look out for me in a way that's amazingly sweet... :) :) Take colin for example: we were sitting in front of the fan during fiesta, cooling off, and he hooked both his forefingers together and tilted his head towards you yi, in a silent question asking if we were together. Just as silently, i nodded and he immediately stuck his hand out at you yi and went "Hi, I'm Colin!" in such an abrupt manner tt i laughed! *tickled* cute ;)
Then there's peter, porshee, kenneth and geri, who sat with me during dinner at Long Johns. Curiously enough, they told me more than i told them!! Like... Geri n Porshee thought tt Kenneth and i had this 'thing' going... And that all of them thought eddie n i were attached or smthing... Both of which they felt was quite safe to impart to me now that i'm definitely with someone else! (gee thanks..) :P Even Don, my ex-branch manager had half an hour of advise to help me 'handle' a guy, esp since it seems my branch is well aware that i'm already attached (!!) thanks to Ann & Angelia who both saw YY and i at PS when we went for our first ever movie date... ;) Who else saw us? You Yi colleague... Salsa Ryan... All of them saw us on the SAME NIGHT!!!! Gosh! What were they doing out on a Wed night is what I'd like to know.. Haha. And the worrying thing is that they're only the ones that we know of.. ;p
So i'm touched really... That they care.. :) I really feel closer to my salsa / ssc peepz than i ever did to my badminton teammates though we spent years training together!! Strange but true.
Then there's John. (haha)
And i danced with at least 2 guys i've never danced with before (am talking abt fiesta). As well as was invited to 2 different salsa outings tonight!! (Don't recall that happening ever before...) Social nite at LAdanceconnection by Zhi Min & Union by Chee Hao ;) haha, that reminds me: Zhi Min! I just HAPPENED to meet him at the SMU matriculation on thurs coz he was advertising his Child@st11 comm service project, then he appears at fiesta the day after! So coincidental!! AND he's in SMU's latin dance club (a subsidiary of Eurythmix) as well as a member of LADC's performance team; not to mention, he's in e Econs & Business double-degree prog, which is exactly what i hope to get into!!!!! *whew* anything more coincidental and he'll be part of the SMUX team as well... (which i doubt, since he's so fair, so no need to be jealous darling.. haha)
Talk abt strange.. Kim just started a conversation with me on msn *_* suddenly after over a year?! Goodness... Surely God must be testing my resolve to stay stuck to YY......... Haha!!
Which reminds me.. YY and some girl (Jean, he says she's called) were exchanging hp numbers while i was in e salsa 3 class!!! *has eyes at the back of my head* {!!!!!} Kenneth happened to rotate to partner me just then n my exact words to him were "my boyfriend's picking up another girl..." *starts to steam at the ears* wah lau... bet u didn't tell her you're already attached, did you dearest????? *silky smile*
Haiz... Jealousy jealousy!! How can i love him so & know he loves me yet feel that way all in one?? *mixed up* at least i know it's e girl who expressed an interest in him first and not the other way round *fierce glare*
Well we've got a ring now.. *beeeggggg GRIN* hahaha. DEFINITELY another first!!! Now his colleagues think he's getting married coz dearest has put it on his left 4th finger instead of his right ;p loll... although i do believe he's serious (half at least) abt looking at this as a very long engagement (wait.. isn't that a movie?!) instead. Heh. So i have a half boyfriend, half fiance ;) lolx! I like his idea of a honeymoon btw... Swiss alps... Skiing, snowboarding, horseriding & taking the eurotrain to paris to reaffirm our vows atop the effiel tower... *wistful sigh* li & fi are happy to just stay in a deserted hut in the beautiful maldives of clear waters, sparkling skies and romantic isolation for a period of pure....*cough* togetherness. ---->GRIN`
He's told his mom abt me already... Apparently she had lotsa questions like: Is she a high maintainence girl? Is she messy? Can she cook? Is she pampered? etc etc etc... haha! Comments anyone??? *sheepish smile* all i can say, dearest, is that i don't think u know me all that well yet!! hehz~
Tried asking papa et al. what they think of YY... Delia's the most positive :p bryan thinks 4 months *kicks him* papa thinks his manners need improving (pot calling the kettle black!!) and mummy thinks he's nice but not as my bf ;) haha. bleah. she was laughing quite a bit just now actually, coz she was saying she liked that YY would say hi when he arrives and bye when he leaves, except tt she always happens to be in bed when tt occurs... so when i popped my head in to check if she's decent, she sees two heads looking in instead! one on top & one below... 'totem pole'-like ;) lolx.
Anyway, just got a msg that sOmEoNe's waiting for my call.... *oops* so gtg!! Love y'all =)
10:20 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
For my love...
Your smile reaches into the furthest corners of my heart, touches me in a place so deep, so remote that i never knew it was there. My heart was waiting, in restless slumber; waiting, till you came along, & smiled, & awakened the tumbling emotions within.
You... are a seeming dream i never want to wake up from. Our love is so true it's the wellspring founded in the depth of God's unconditional love... Forever & always. I love you. I love all of you, everything about you, you you :)
I never imagined, that our conversation could let me love you more. You shared things i never thought i'd hear from you for years at least; shared your life, your heart, your soul, on so profound a love that you touched me, humbled me. Tenderness & love... Love, always love. :)
Funny, I never had so many poems/songs/plays pop into my head as i've had since meeting you... Lyrics, you know already, better than i. Poems, here's one (nv knew my jc lit would actually come in useful). Plays, snatches of it (eg. Romeo & Juliet's balcony scene;)
My chinese tutor who's been w me since P5/6 calls it yuan4 fen4, or fate. Kismet. Destiny. All of the above :) If ever i needed proof tt God loves, your being in my life clinches it.
Last night, i dreamt...
Tangled in the mires of sleeping, sinking in the depths of dream, you were with me.
Holding me, you were intertwined, you & He. Surrounding me w a warmth & presence so tangible i didn't want to wake. (were u praying dearest?) Yet wake i did, slowly, surfacing from the oh-so-reluctant watery realm of dream. Becoming more aware of myself yet i could still feel you/He there.
Enveloping me. Loving me.
Disorientation held me for a long while while i woke. I could still feel your presence, dual & intertwined; curled up beneath my blanket, i hugged on to my bolster, so the last vestiges of you won't slip away...
My mind still raced, images flitting through it uncontrolled. Of children's books, beautifully illustrated; of our wedding day, you standing at the aisle, i smiled... we smiled, a "guess what? we made it" kinda smile... Pictures, wedding pictures. Dance, us in each others' arms.
Images let loose within my mind. Tilled with your love & planted with mine.
I couldn't sleep. So i'm writing this now, lest i forget. I never want to forget any time spent with you... They are treasures, the most precious of gems in my strongbox of Life.
Dearest, darling, i love you.
Happy one week anniversary :)
6:00 AM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Orchard Building #10-08
DRS. LIM, HOE & WONG: consultant diagnostic radiologists
-chest x ray for smu med check up (whatever for?!?)-
Gee.. I really haven't had the time to simply sit before the computer and blog, what with china, malaysia & my *ahem* boyfriend... *BEEG GRIN* Haha, i'll never get tired of saying that... though my LOVE would be more appropriate, more lasting don't you think, dearest?? -grinne-
I'm still amazed that he's here & it's happened and... and... everything i suppose!! Most not appropriate to blogging eyes since Preethi has generously let me know how "shockingly open" (words to that extent) i am already (and i didn't even write much!! haha!) well anyway... since more ppl than i realised (at least 6 tt of whom i just discovered!) actually read my blog, i suppose i need to be more... circumspect in what i blog & to whom i give my password (yes! i've a PASSWORD now!!!!!!!! :D :D :D hahaha, li rocks *big hug for li*). visitors please tag... lolx.
Eddie's been really sweet!! He msged me at least twice in the past 3 weeks that i've been away, telling me tt i'm missed... *smilesmilesmile* thank you eddie... whatever you're going through, i'm always here - just a phonecall away if you need to talk. True love will find you, whether or not you go looking for it :P chin up dear, she doesn't know what she missed.
I can't wait to go back to salsa!! Who's free this sun?? Say... 3pm salsa at my house? *GRIN* i say 3, coz i wanna go for patrick's hip hop class fr 12.30-1.30pm! Yes! Hip hop!! *starts bopping to the groove... bopbopbop... heehee* Went to watch you yi at his hip hop class & i kept wanting to join in!! Haha, what are u doing in e beginners' class darling?? -grinne- love you :)
Ok word of caution to readers, I suspect my blog is going to become pretty mushy from now on.. *starts handing out barf bags* so don't read it if u can't take it ;)
I'm at the x-ray place now actually, the only non-staff person around since it's lunch break but they've kindly allowed me to stay... Yesterday was jessica's bday (HAPPY 19TH!! :D) & we + laura have planned to go k-boxing together! Hahaha... i can't sing... ;) Laura, we're supposed to watch fantastic 4 together too hey? & TRY to plan an ex-class gathering... :P for those who don't know, shu en has migrated to australia!!!! Laura told me yesterday n i was stunned! What happened to Dennis then? Forgot to ask...
Oh and Yee Yen's in Singapore for the day!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D Woohoo!!! Have missed you yee yen!!! Andee's darn pissed at you for coming when he's stuck in camp (poor army boy... he n nizam both!!) & he wants me to reprimand you - well his exact words were "please scold yee yen for me, cheryl" - sternly for him... *frowns & waggles finger at you* how could you!? not even staying the night!! Yee yen!!!!!
Ok i'm not very good at this so consider yourself scolded ;) haha, serves you right for being stunned too that i have a bf *grinne* & you're going UCL!!! Where Jade is & my bro often visits! That's it... I'm going to visit :) :)
Arghhh.... School's starting soon!! It's definitely going to be interesting (i wanna start a salsa club!) & I AM looking forward to it with some measure of excitement and yet... I don't want the holidays to end :P It would definitely mean less time spent with you yi esp coz & i'm determined to study HARD this first year!!
(a) i want to attain admittance to the double-degree prog
(b) I shall try for top first year student - which is practically an impossibility but for ma ee's sake, i SHALL try!! - or at the very least, attain the Dean's List (ie. top 5%)
I love a challenge... -grinnne-
Whew! Looks like i've a lot lined up for me these days... Still gotta start teaching myself the guitar (so much for spanish ;p ) coz i missed the last 3 lessons of my 8 week course :p Plus, go for camps, catch up with friends, pak-toh... ;D mmm... almost forgot: DRIVING!!!!!! bleah... MUST PASS!! i wanna drive papa's car... AND get my licence before uni term begins :P lolx
Leaving till the morning's down
swirling, drifting in the clouds
myriad rainbows shining through
glittering, dazzling in the dew,
the hazel-light of shifting dawn
share the smile of love's sweet morn,
sighing, swaying, I found you.
Cupid's arrow, it strikes true.
Sorry, poetry, i'm just rambling... Need to leave now if i'm to reach city hall in time :p toodles! =)
1:30 PM