Saturday, June 07, 2003
WHAT TYPE OF WILD CREATURE ARE YOU? (New Pictures!)
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nizam's a lemur... ;P
1:19 AM
today was the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *beeg bEeG joyful happy excited cheery BEAM* :D :D :D yahaha, n paul khoo treated our class (ten of us aniwae) to Bowling for Columbine... it was quite a good show, funny and thought provoking, i'd advise anyone to watch it :) i used to like charlton heston before watching this though, but now i don't really.. not quite aniwae :P bleah, i can't believe he's part of that.. what's it called? NRA?? pRoMoTinG the use of arms... :( :( what an idiot. :(
yeah, found ee sang aft e movie coz she was at far east with a few of her ex-classmates. she's really easy to get along with :) probably my best friend in RJ i'd say -sMilEz- but... we were talking abt cf. a bit of a problem there which i sorta noticed over the past few days. was waiting for her to tell me and now she has :P they don't really talk anymore aft cf got his communist lookin glasses n started to be 'studious'. he seems to have "shut off" were her words, and i believe she's right... he suddenly just... stopped. hmm... not sure what to make of it... part of me thinks tt it's coz he really HAS decided to be muggy n he knows they're getting closer but he doesn't want tt coz he wants to concentrate on his studies... another part of me thinks he's stopped trying. like tt period of time he was always with her was a sort of 'trial' to see if their relationship could go deeper but he doesn't want to anymore. is it becoz he doesn't want her? or he doesn't want to get involved? or he feels tt their relationship will never work out?? it's kinda like what i'm doing with genius now i supposed... giving him a chance, or us a chance :P i won't shut off like him if i come to the same(?) kind of conclusion anyway... he's dem bossy, no EQ whatsoever :P
whatever it is, i know she thinks of him as more than a friend, even though she won't admit to truely LiKinG him yet... but missing a guy when he's not around kinda hints at smthing u noe? ;) SO. basically, she's hurt abt his 'shutting off' and she's reacting in that okay-fine-whatever-if-u-dun-talk-to-mi-den-i-won't-talk-to-u-either manner. which she would not have if she only liked him as a friend, albeit a good one :P soooo, since she's hurt n not making e effort to talk to him either, he's hurt coz he feels she shouldn't be [over]reacting like this coz they ARE friends after all, no matter... and it's a viscious cycle. one that can only be broken out of if cf opens up a little, lets us know what he's thinking and at least explains why he 'shut off' in the first place, though i'm not sure if he did it deliberately or not.
haiz, he's such a stone... he HAS been hurt before though, gone thru a lot of problems in his "crap j1 year" and he's built strong walls around himself :( :( i wish we could break through to him... he's my friend too you know and i still care for him. wish i/we could help him =\
How can you see into my eyes Like open doors
Leading you down into my core Where I become so numb
Without a soul My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there And lead it back home
~ Evanescence
1:10 AM
Thursday, June 05, 2003
oooooooooooooo... i juz came home from watching 'what a girl wants' with mummy n delia. it's abt a 17 yr old girl who went to find her father who doesn't even know she exists :P i'm seventeen too!! -grInZ- ;) told li last nite that i'll be watching it today and she was like '-shudder- i dun like the actress (amanda smthing or other)" she's right tho... i dun really like the girl either :P she seemed rather fakish to mi, n i got kinda dizzy watching her eyes... a little crooked i think :P oh but the guy is soooooooooooooooooo CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D i absolutely aDoRe~ his english accent and he looks dARn good!!!!!!! *fans herself* whew! haha!! lol... i think his name is oliver smthing... james? oliver james?? whatever it is, his voice is beeeee-U-tiFuL... -grinz grinz grinz- =) hhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............. *feels sweetified* -sMilEz-
9:43 PM
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
blah blah blah...
i think i miss him.
genius.
oh darn...
sighz... he hasn't been in school this week, n won't be till august coz of simo training n imo itself. hmmz. i think it's his company i miss, not hiM reaLLy~... i hope. :P
haha, it's probably becoz of ee sang (stupid gurl u ;p)... coz she was telling mi tt she missed cai fong when she juz saw him tt morning. bleah. Called genius last night... or tried to aniwae, dialled his no n put down when it started ringing... three times!! :P My theory is that these things are self-induced. If i told myself tt genius is in school, i prob won't miss him, coz i din miss him when he was in school. yeah! so it's juz cos i KNOW he's not around, that my mind sends sub-conscious messages telling mi that i miss him!! *slaps head* y din i think of that before?!? ;) haha! i feel quite stupid...
what am i doing........?!??!?!???!?!??!?
bleahz.. :P -crooked smile- was sitting next to grace during eng lec today... e opposite side of the LT from where my class (and I) usually sit... and i actually paid attention!!!!!!!!! *feels so accomplished* ermz, for three quarters of the lecture or so anyway ;p heehee, betta den nothing i suppose!! *griNz*
muahahahaha~ j2s haf their gp common test later ;) hah! we had ours last week... liaoz, ee sang was determined not to talk to cai fong yesterday (which i thot was quite dumb coz when you TRY to do something, u end up thinking abt it more), so she was asking mi to help her tell him... yeah right~!! haha, just kidding... i did tell him, n i told him to study too... he was like,"study, don't study, still fail what! so study for what?!" haiyoh! this kind of person arh... ;P last night was quite funny tho, had a sorta farewell party for e j2 volunteers at the kk family service centre and the students were giving their tutors postcards they wrote to thank them. so cf has a sec4 student named june and the entire fsc thinks there's smthing going on btwn them (which i know for a FACT there is not) so when she was called up to present her postcard, all the ppl next to cf (e j2s were sitting in a row wif 'extra' cf sitting smack in the middle) moving away so he was juz sitting there, with june standing in front of him... alone. more or less aniwae. haha! and everybody started cheering when they took their pic together!!! lol! coz all e tutors take a pic with their student see... heeheehee, i HAVE to relate this incident to ee sang ;)
arghz, bell rang 10 mins ago... gonna be late for maths tutorial :P bah!
11:20 AM
Monday, June 02, 2003
hahaha!!! GP and we were watching happy tree friends! -cough- i mean... doing project work ;) LOL i hAvE~ to send some to jun pin... that criminal forensic sadist would love it!! -gRinZ- and ee sang and her project group r here too... as in in comp lab3 n they're researching on e spanish flu. wah liao! she like got de cutest guys in class in her prj grp... ying heng n wei li ;) haha!! and xi qiong is in her group (sec4 class prc scholar xi qiong) => heehee! we're so crap!!! gp today was fun :) :) :)
man i feel so cheated!! mr. ho was talking to each of us individually during maths tutorial today... and he was telling me that the best i can do is an E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like wHaT~!!??!?!?! excuusssseee me... i've been doing all my maths tutorials n assignments since graphs k, n ernest is tRyInG to tutor mi in maths :D liaoZ~ this came at a totally wrong time lorh, juz when i finished ALL my trigo tutorial questions AS WELL AS my trig assignment when he hasn't gone thru e entire tutorial yet.... yes. i feel cheated. :P
i just heard fr jenanni tt victoria is leaving for US pErManEnTlY on 10 june... it's 2 june today! that's like next tuesday!!!!!!!! :O viccccccc~!!! *grabs vic's leg and doesn't let go* :P boohoo :( *misses vic already*
oh yeah, sat was parent teacher's meeting... bleah, unsuprising tt mummy n papa wanted to have a tALk~ with me after that.. :P basically, i'm lazy n unproductive n a bad example as a ct rep :P uh oh!! gotta leave the comp lab now... lateRz~
4:07 PM