Wednesday, April 25, 2007
I have this vicious ball of emotions somewhere on the left side of my chest that is bursting to get out. It feels so horrible, so intense, so hateful and mean but i don't know what to do with it. I can't let it out or it'd hurt people. So i'm keeping it in and i'm destroying myself. Deadly acid corroding my soul. Warping, burning, going up in smoke. Now I know why some people go insane. The ball just grows bigger and bigger until it encompasses them and destroys those around them. Or it burrows deeper and deeper until the person kills him/herself trying to claw it out and rips himself apart. Which will be my fate, I wonder? The latter. I will die a painful death in search of peace and happiness.
Skydiving next week is starting to look more tempting. Yes. I think jumping out of a plane would be a good way to destress for me. Time to sign up and tell my parents about it later.
3:36 PM