Wednesday, April 25, 2007
And scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are
We grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
Reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em' your name
I won't tell em' your name
(from "Name" by Goo Goo Dolls)
I'm just listening to a bunch of their songs and these lyrics just struck me.
Yes the past is never far... In my case, its 4 hours drive / 8 hours by bus / 1 second by msn away. And I don't know what to do with it, I'm lost somewhere out there, in vast America. But no I'm not a star. And life has always been bigger than who I am. It makes me feel small, unworthy and insignificant sometimes, but not sad... Occasionally depressed, maybe :p
I want to take back my childhood, snatch back my youth. Stay up on Christmas eve to catch Santa Claus and hold my daddy's thumb to sleep. When I dreamt of happily-ever-after and untarnished love, roses and soulmates and all that. Now there's nothing to believe... Except Heaven.
I won't tell 'em your name.
9:35 AM