Monday, April 16, 2007
2007-04-16
Cheryl Kong: 00:53:50i don't know if you're online, but if you are, msn is not letting me message
Cheryl Kong: 00:54:10so. yeah.
Cheryl Kong: 00:54:17sorry for not replying.
You Yi: 02:28:45it's ok..i wasnt looking for a reply because i know what it is
Cheryl Kong: 02:29:10what is it/
You Yi: 02:31:57you'll ask me totry to forget you coz nothing's going to happen anytime soon
Cheryl Kong: 02:32:22yup
You Yi: 02:33:09may i just sing heaven knows to you?
You Yi: 02:33:26it's important to me
You Yi: 02:33:34and i mean every word of it
Cheryl Kong: 02:36:57NO
Cheryl Kong: 02:37:01i already know that song
Cheryl Kong: 02:37:39and i'm not going to encourage you by letting you sing it
Cheryl Kong: 02:37:42to me
You Yi: 02:38:17it says about letting you go and leaving it to heaven's will
Cheryl Kong: 02:38:25i'm being firm, and that may be hurting you now, but i'm just trying to help you get over me ok?
Cheryl Kong: 02:38:27yes i know
Cheryl Kong: 02:38:54i'm going to sleep now
Cheryl Kong: 02:38:59i'm not feeling well
Cheryl Kong: 02:39:02good night.
You Yi: 02:39:03!!!!!
Cheryl Kong: 02:39:10?
You Yi: 02:39:11the water..
Cheryl Kong: 02:39:15huh
Cheryl Kong: 02:39:18water?
You Yi: 02:39:28got soaked today so falling ill?
Cheryl Kong: 02:39:46sigh!
Cheryl Kong: 02:39:48good night.
You Yi: 02:40:00cheryl. i love you, and i believe what we have/had can last forever
You Yi: 02:40:10good night
You Yi: 02:40:14sweet dreams
You Yi: 02:40:18please read the lyrics
You Yi: 02:40:21and know i mean it
Cheryl Kong: 02:40:24YOU HAVE TO GET RID OF THAT MINDSET NOW
You Yi: 02:40:24byebye
Cheryl Kong: 02:40:28please!!
Cheryl Kong: 02:40:40you're just causing more pain for your self!
Cheryl Kong: 02:41:17seriously!
You Yi: 02:41:29yeah, i know
Cheryl Kong: 02:41:33if i have to cut myself off from your life completely before you can get over me, i will!
You Yi: 02:41:44..............
Cheryl Kong: 02:41:51for your sake
You Yi: 02:41:58that sounds noble
Cheryl Kong: 02:41:59because i still care for you as a friend
You Yi: 02:42:01......
Cheryl Kong: 02:42:03and i don't want you to hurt
Cheryl Kong: 02:42:11hello.
You Yi: 02:42:21i know
Cheryl Kong: 02:42:22either way, i'm the bitch right?
You Yi: 02:42:26no!
Cheryl Kong: 02:42:29if i try to friend you, i'm hurting you
Cheryl Kong: 02:42:38if i cut you off, i'm still hurting you!
You Yi: 02:42:50wrong
Cheryl Kong: 02:42:56so take your pick before i choose for you
You Yi: 02:43:39sigh
Cheryl Kong: 02:43:39you may not see it that way but other people do
Cheryl Kong: 02:43:50i lose either way
You Yi: 02:43:53i'm hurting myself
Cheryl Kong: 02:44:09u're making it worse for yourself, yes.
Cheryl Kong: 02:44:15but i know its hard
Cheryl Kong: 02:44:23and i've been trying to give you time!
Cheryl Kong: 02:44:28its been a month
You Yi: 02:44:32you always are so concerned about what people think of you
You Yi: 02:44:46and a month can get rid of the emotions i've have for you for 2 years?
Cheryl Kong: 02:44:551 and a half
You Yi: 02:45:011 and a half?
Cheryl Kong: 02:45:03years
You Yi: 02:45:14i'm sorry, i dont know how you can do it
You Yi: 02:45:21i'm serious i just dont
You Yi: 02:46:221 month and you can stop feeling the emotions of 1 and a half years, i cant!
Cheryl Kong: 02:47:02i know its hard!
Cheryl Kong: 02:47:23but even if you can't stop feeling inside, at least have some measure of control about how it comes out!!
You Yi: 02:47:44i am trying,
You Yi: 02:48:29i am semi successful in just trying to be your friend and not care about anything else
You Yi: 02:48:52i dont even know how far and i'm not going to ask how your relationship with him is coming along
You Yi: 02:48:57and i'm not caring about that
Cheryl Kong: 02:49:02........
Cheryl Kong: 02:49:25you know, i think being friends is worse for you
Cheryl Kong: 02:49:38i think i should just step out and let you get on with your life
You Yi: 02:49:43do you deny you're getting closer to him?
You Yi: 02:49:56that he's someone you're thinking about considering?
Cheryl Kong: 02:49:59no, i never have
Cheryl Kong: 02:50:14so?
Cheryl Kong: 02:50:25its none of your BUSINESS now!
You Yi: 02:50:37so, you allowed yourself to open your heart and he just slipped right in
You Yi: 02:50:40i know that
You Yi: 02:50:51you have some one to care for you the way you want to be cared for
You Yi: 02:51:01and help ease the transition
Cheryl Kong: 02:51:03MY HEART WAS NOT OPEN BUT IN A VULNERABLE STATE
Cheryl Kong: 02:51:06STOP ASSUMING THINGS
Cheryl Kong: 02:51:22HE IS NOT A REBOUND
You Yi: 02:51:29open and vulnerable is about the same
You Yi: 02:51:34i'm not saying he is
You Yi: 02:51:42i'm saying he's a great guy
Cheryl Kong: 02:51:46it is not "about the same"
Cheryl Kong: 02:51:51words have meanings!
You Yi: 02:51:52and it was good for both you and him
You Yi: 02:52:31that at the time you were not feeling loved
Cheryl Kong: 02:52:40no.
Cheryl Kong: 02:52:41again.
Cheryl Kong: 02:52:57you are trying to find other reasons
You Yi: 02:53:00no
You Yi: 02:53:04i drove you away
Cheryl Kong: 02:53:09i was not not feeling loved
You Yi: 02:53:09thats the truth plain and simple
Cheryl Kong: 02:53:17i was feeling SQUASHED
You Yi: 02:53:27yes
Cheryl Kong: 02:53:46everything you said above is just FALSE FALSE FALSE
Cheryl Kong: 02:53:55CAN YOU NOT GET IT!
Cheryl Kong: 02:54:00HE HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT
You Yi: 02:54:05i know!!!!
Cheryl Kong: 02:54:16THEN WHY DO YOU KEEP DRAGGING HIM INTO THIS?!?!?!?
You Yi: 02:54:16I drove you away!
You Yi: 02:54:24i'm not saying it's BECAUSE of him
You Yi: 02:54:26!
You Yi: 02:54:34never did
Cheryl Kong: 02:54:39but?
You Yi: 02:54:46no buts
You Yi: 02:54:50he had nothing to do with it
You Yi: 02:54:58this matter is between the two of us
Cheryl Kong: 02:55:06then why do you keep dragging him in?!?!?!?
Cheryl Kong: 02:55:18you didn't ans my question!
You Yi: 02:55:25because he's the one who captured your heart when you were vulnerable
Cheryl Kong: 02:55:35!(@$%(&%(
You Yi: 02:55:39i admit to one thing
Cheryl Kong: 02:55:41HE HAS NOT CAPTURED MY HEART
Cheryl Kong: 02:55:55CAN YOU STOP SPOUTING FALSITIES THAT YOU IMAGINE TO BE TRUE?!?!?
Cheryl Kong: 02:56:04you have NO idea what's going on
Cheryl Kong: 02:56:09so STOP thinking that you do!!
You Yi: 02:56:27you are emotionally attracted to him and you consider getting together with him
You Yi: 02:56:32?
You Yi: 02:56:38thats what i gatter from what you said
You Yi: 02:56:57okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Cheryl Kong: 02:56:58AGAIN, i go back to my earlier question
You Yi: 02:57:00stop
Cheryl Kong: 02:57:07WHAT has he to do with our break up?!
You Yi: 02:57:11nothing
Cheryl Kong: 02:57:15WHY are you always saying stuff?
You Yi: 02:57:21we broke up because of our problems
You Yi: 02:57:25but
You Yi: 02:57:29i cant help thinking
Cheryl Kong: 02:57:30BUT?!
You Yi: 02:57:55that without him, maybe i had a better chance of getting you back
You Yi: 02:58:12false probably
Cheryl Kong: 02:58:14:|
You Yi: 02:58:22look.
You Yi: 02:58:27i'm sorry
You Yi: 02:58:39i didnt mean for this to turn out this way
Cheryl Kong: 02:58:46.......................
Cheryl Kong: 02:58:56we should go our own seperate ways
You Yi: 02:58:58i wanted to care for you
Cheryl Kong: 02:59:03I TOLD YOU NOT TO
You Yi: 02:59:09i wanted to hold true to my promise to you before
Cheryl Kong: 02:59:10you want you want you want!
You Yi: 02:59:30it's for you..
You Yi: 03:00:01yes, it is what i want
You Yi: 03:00:11i devoted myself to you
You Yi: 03:00:18sweet, but not something that you wanted
Cheryl Kong: 03:00:33i want a MAN
Cheryl Kong: 03:00:34not a SHADOW
You Yi: 03:00:40yes
Cheryl Kong: 03:00:48ok stop this
You Yi: 03:00:50you do
You Yi: 03:00:54yes
Cheryl Kong: 03:00:57stop it
You Yi: 03:01:12i apologise to you for doing something that i tld you i wouldnt
Cheryl Kong: 03:01:18we should go our seperate ways
You Yi: 03:02:33nah
Cheryl Kong: 03:02:47nah?
Cheryl Kong: 03:02:50wth is nah?!
You Yi: 03:03:08....
Cheryl Kong: 03:03:13nah you want to continue torturing yourself?
Cheryl Kong: 03:03:24well i'm sorry, but i don't want to be the instrument of your torture
You Yi: 03:03:28no
Cheryl Kong: 03:03:39so go torture yourself with someone else
You Yi: 03:03:45blinkblink
You Yi: 03:04:21no, i'm not planning on torturing myself
At this point, i blocked him. From both msn and skype. I'm so fed up. I was trying so hard not to swear. I'm done with him. I'm done.
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