Friday, October 07, 2005
Hi, I am stressed and i am painfully in love. Painfully because it is causing me pain yet i don't want to shut myself off from him (that's where the 'in love' bit comes in) coz i'm hoping against hope that he loves me back as well...
Guess i'm just too stressed to be emotionally strong right now... So many projects, so much homework, so many tests and SO LITTLE TIME..... Sigh... Okay, i was feeling quite unhappy just now (and now), so i shall try to unload everything onto my blog, as usual.
Friday. Woke up at 8.30am this morning to do some research for BGS. I was already in a very rushed mode coz mummy n papa initially wanted me to go look at cars with them. Anyway, did that till 10, showered then got picked up by them to go Selegie Branch to open an E-$avers account for myself. Ann did the processing for us and i discovered that my old workplace has changed quite a bit! For one thing, Don is no longer the BM there (that gave me quite a shock, apparently he was transferred elsewhere but has also tendered his resignation), Jaq has left and there are numerous new faces around..... So I left, still rushing, without time to find out who else was gone and why :( Reached school at 12noon, exactly on time for the silly comms 100 briefing.. And i believe that was the only high point of my day: finding out that i was exempted after all, thanks to a SAT score of >650 for english :p
At 12.35 (after the talk ended), our microecons group (vanessa, shilpa, anisha, shalini n myself) met up to discuss what topic we wanted to do for our project. Vanessa only joined us at 1.30 coz she was at a meni&pedi with monica!!! Haha. Well we kinda agreed on two or three different interesting ones... (1) What's with all the numerous sales in singapore? How do they make profits etc. (2) Why are the bus companies privatised? I mean, won't u just take the first bus that comes along, not wait for one with tv mobile on it -for example-? (3) Why are we charged the same price for different sized pieces of clothing? Shouldn't it be cheaper if they use less material and more ex if they use more?? (i don't think this one is very good tho, coz i think same clothes -regardless of size- are charged the same price to avoid messiness)
Anyway, we tried finding Massi, but he wasn't in his office!! Poor Sarah came all the way back to school to find him for consultation but he wasn't there and it was his consultation hours!! I want to find him too... to ask him abt my sucky B- paper... Think i shall do that on monday. Btw, i think the marking system in uni is very unfair... Classes who get strict profs like yang zhenli are at a huge disadvantage compared to other stats profs, whose students score 90+ on average hence all get A's... And regarding Massi's microecons paper, for example, there is absolutely no mark breakdown! Apart fr the mcqs, we don't know where we lose marks n why we get a certain grade... For example, there's a guy in my class who got the last two questions completely wrong (like me), but scored an A coz apparently the TA said he put in a lot of effort in the paper. @()%)$^%*^(??#!$?!?!?!? baised marking... Apparently the marks required for an A+ is 82/83, while the mark for a B- is 70. That's means there's only two marks difference between each grade!! And that's BAD coz the GPA difference btween a an A+ (4.3) and a B- (2.7) is humongous! So if i get one more mcq question correct (3marks), i can jump 2 grades to a B+ (GPA 3.3), provided the marking system is fair and consistent! That's incredible!!
Anyway, the grading system is not the foremost worry on my mind so let me move on...
3pm. BGS project meeting. (ok so we actually only started at 3.30 coz vanessa, sarah and i were checking out Biotherm which has a 15% discount for today only!!! hahaha) think Danielle and Daniel both got a bit irritated with us at that :p anyway, bgs meeting made me stressed! Coz danielle has this extremely focused mindset that sees exactly what she wants to do and goes all the way to do that. However, that does not work very well in a group project coz it's not one person's mindset which matters but all of ours. Sighhh... But we managed to reach a compromise in the end and shall meet again next week.
So we were done at arnd 4pm but i spent the next 45mins getting all the things i have to do sorted out before going to the pc clinic to sort out my laptop. I was really really quite quite QUITE stressed out by then... You Yi was supposed to come meet me but i was done faster than i thought so i told him i'll go find him instead since he hadn't reached where i was yet. Called him, found out he was at SESS, so i walked over to meet him. Walk walk walk... Saw him talking to some girl... Walked closer... Still not noticed. Was contemplating walking through killiney kopitiam to completely avoid them and come out on the other side and go home myself but all i could bring myself to was to leave more space between myself and them and just walk past. Unfortunately, my poor tattered heart couldn't bear to leave a wide enough gap so i was noticed anyway and pulled close to be introduced to yet another one of his pretty girlfriends who prob noticed that something weird was going on. (Maybe all the previous girls who turned him down and his exes who broke up with him know something i don't... Maybe i'm the only one fool and gullible enough to fall for a player like him, with all his sweet words and smooth talk...) My poor dear oblivious boyfriend was too occupied by a pretty face and didn't even notice when i pulled my hand out of his and prevented him fr putting his arm around me.
Later, he thought i was going to go for dinner with him, so was mildly disappointed that i wasn't (even though i hadn't even been invited by his aunt! whose birthday the dinner was in celebration of). So we left school coz he had to leave to go dine with his family, and, as i'm sure u've gathered by now, i had been in a state of stress since 5pm and he wasn't helping any with his "jokes" along our route to PS. Let me tell you some of them...
The 'push-away' joke
YY: "Maybe I am pushing you away..."
CK: "Are you pushing me away??"
YY: (abruptly) "Yes." -walks away ahead-
CK: (perilously close to tears) -drags feet and stares at his back-
YY: -turns around and smiles- Nahh... Just kidding. I won't push you away dear. -puts arm around CK-
The Hidden
-CK walks behind YY, they do not touch. CK falls further and further behind, YY keeps walking. CK stops, stands behind a pillar and waits.... (30 seconds later) CK steps out from behind pillar. YY is approx 4 pillars away, looking around as he walks back. CK waits, YY spots her.-
YY: "There you are!"
CK: "I was wondering how long it'd take for you to notice that i wasn't behind you anymore.."
YY: -puts arm around CK- Ah I see... Well i did notice and i'm here now.
The Reverse Push-away
-YY has arm around CK but CK's hand is in-between, holding him away an arm's length-
YY: "I'll never let you push me away!"
CK: "You mean like this?" -gives YY a shove with the arm in-between-
YY: -lets go with little resistance and moves in front of CK-
CK: Haha, that's the first time i've done that literally!
YY: -doesn't seem to hear. walks on ahead in front of CK, does not look back.-
CK: -stares at his back, disbelieving. Drags feet once more.- (feels strong urge to go somewhere far far away, curl up in a ball and cry...)
Salsa fiesta
-CK calls YY on hp-
YY: "Hey dear i just reached here! Everyone's wondering where you are!!"
CK: "Help me say hello to them! I miss everyone!! Feel like going right now actually!"
YY: "Haha, coz we're psychically connected right?? Even Rui Fen and Kenneth are here!"
CK: "Oh no!! They're from NTU and NUS and they're partying, but i'm from SMU and i'm home studying! I'm like ruining SMU's reputation!!! Hahaha!"
-YY passes hp to Porshee-
Porshee: "Hey girl, where are you?! Rui Fen's flirting with your boyfriend!!"
CK: -!*@#(%*$#(^^?!?@#?!/@%!($%(!?- "Hello! I can't come lah!! I have sooooo many projects and tests and homework and stuff! Wish i could be there man.."
-Porshee passes hp to Kenneth-
Kenneth: "Hey where are you?!? Rui Fen's flirting with You Yi!!"
Rui Fen: (in the background) "Hey i'm not k...!"
Kenneth: "You're such a mugger man! Rui Fen and I are here and you're not?! How's that possible?!?!?"
CK: "Sorry lah.. I'm so stressed! Got so much work to do!!! That's not fair... You're a medicine student and you study less than me :p"
-rest of convo is insignificant. THE END.
Story of my day...
Who should CK believe? Can YY be trusted? Call in to air your views! Tune in once more, anytime, anyday! Goodnight folks and have a merry weekend!!
word of wisdom: don't cry when you have ulcers... they hurt more.
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