Wednesday, June 29, 2005
For my love...
Your smile reaches into the furthest corners of my heart, touches me in a place so deep, so remote that i never knew it was there. My heart was waiting, in restless slumber; waiting, till you came along, & smiled, & awakened the tumbling emotions within.
You... are a seeming dream i never want to wake up from. Our love is so true it's the wellspring founded in the depth of God's unconditional love... Forever & always. I love you. I love all of you, everything about you, you you :)
I never imagined, that our conversation could let me love you more. You shared things i never thought i'd hear from you for years at least; shared your life, your heart, your soul, on so profound a love that you touched me, humbled me. Tenderness & love... Love, always love. :)
Funny, I never had so many poems/songs/plays pop into my head as i've had since meeting you... Lyrics, you know already, better than i. Poems, here's one (nv knew my jc lit would actually come in useful). Plays, snatches of it (eg. Romeo & Juliet's balcony scene;)
My chinese tutor who's been w me since P5/6 calls it yuan4 fen4, or fate. Kismet. Destiny. All of the above :) If ever i needed proof tt God loves, your being in my life clinches it.
Last night, i dreamt...
Tangled in the mires of sleeping, sinking in the depths of dream, you were with me.
Holding me, you were intertwined, you & He. Surrounding me w a warmth & presence so tangible i didn't want to wake. (were u praying dearest?) Yet wake i did, slowly, surfacing from the oh-so-reluctant watery realm of dream. Becoming more aware of myself yet i could still feel you/He there.
Enveloping me. Loving me.
Disorientation held me for a long while while i woke. I could still feel your presence, dual & intertwined; curled up beneath my blanket, i hugged on to my bolster, so the last vestiges of you won't slip away...
My mind still raced, images flitting through it uncontrolled. Of children's books, beautifully illustrated; of our wedding day, you standing at the aisle, i smiled... we smiled, a "guess what? we made it" kinda smile... Pictures, wedding pictures. Dance, us in each others' arms.
Images let loose within my mind. Tilled with your love & planted with mine.
I couldn't sleep. So i'm writing this now, lest i forget. I never want to forget any time spent with you... They are treasures, the most precious of gems in my strongbox of Life.
Dearest, darling, i love you.
Happy one week anniversary :)
6:00 AM