Monday, July 28, 2003
This morning...
Suddenly, my world seems brighter; the day, happier... I revel in the warmth of the sunshine... and i smile :)
KH's flight has been delayed... he's still in Singapore :) :) :)
Haha, my whiney chink teacher is making all of us participate in some writing competition... i think she's just trying to get some laughs out of mine :P lol..
Well, i spent chink lesson scribbling this in english, dunno how i'm gonna translate it to chinese though ;p
girl... night... standing at the window with the wind blowing through her hair. swaying... her mind drifts back into the spiral of Time...
school: smiling and laughing with her friends, she feels terribly alone... for none of them can see through her cheerful facade to touch the person within..
teachers: praising her work, holding her as a standard for the rest of the class to live up to... ignorant of how late she stays up at night, not noticing the circles beneath her eyes and the dull weariness within..
tuition: helping students less fortunate than herself with their schoolwork... listening to their tales of woe, of child abuse, gangsters and drugs... And she soothes them, taking their problems unto herself.. drinking in their grateful, teary smiles after they've cried their hearts out... while her own grows ever heavier.
cca: competitions are coming and she pushes herself harder, harder! desperate to prove herself and win a medal for the school... her exhilaration for the sport buried under an avalance of training, driven by her coach and her own intense self-motivation.
family: she grows distant from them... a chasm of schoolwork and commitments widening between them with no way to bridge the gap.. they don't know the troubles in her life and see her minutes at night... mouthing meaningless phrases to study harder and get enough sleep, to which she smiles confidently in return, hiding the mountain of tension pressing mercilessly down upon her.
now... she stands upon her balcony, a light breeze twirling lazily around her.. and she gazes wistfully at the glittering lights beneath her mirroring the sparkling pin-pricks in the sky. And she lets go of all her worries, her stress and problems, flinging them recklessly into the velvet sea of light...
Flying... Free.
seriously, HOW am i supposed to write this in chinese!? lol :P oh yeah, went for judo match support today... both guys n gals lost to the communists (hcjc) *no offence meant* ;) sighz... i sooo expected our guys to win... :( :( :( but emmerson was amazing! haha, he went in, flipped his opponent twice in less than 30 seconds and won *gRinZ* unfortunately, that was our only win :P haha, there's always next yr.......
ouch. my teeth hurt... four cavities... sigh :( no more mars bars n snickers for mi... :p bleah~
11:45 PM