Wednesday, July 30, 2003
long lost words whisper slowly to me
still can't find what keeps me here
i think running to english lecture use up all my energy.
i feel so drained and tired... i can barely even type, my hands, limp on the keyboard. sigh... was pretty much falling asleep thru out eng lec.. chia n lim pm... john donne. sigh................. i don't even have the energy to scrunch up my face muscles and smile... *half-hearted effort* dunno... not that i'm sad or anything... just... energy-less
when all this time i've been so hollow inside
yeah i feel so hollow now... before, it was this magnificent waterfall, rushing and thundering down in a sparkle of frenzied water, billows of mist undulating from the surface, a veritible wall of diamonds sparkling in the dazzling sunlight. And suddenly, a rush of winter. The air frosted up and the temperature plunged in seconds, glaciation racing over the waterfall.. the icy bite halting frozen droplets in mid-air sending them showering to the frozen lake beneath in a tinkering chime of ice upon ice.
hopefully, my adrenaline rush is just sleeping... i'll need it later. got inter-fac badminton before training... *benumbed heart stirs disquietly* haiz.. thinking of going down aft school on fri as well... lies clutching greedily loath to relinquish their hold... has it occured to you that the more you lie, the more it seems you have to lie..???
and my consience staggers under its ever copious burden...
i wonder what time is math? as usual... didn't do tutorial... pui miao after maths.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........................
11:11 AM