Tuesday, June 24, 2003
with love from maldives...
Sat - 21/6/2003 - 1pm (4pm s'pore)
The sea, it calms me... From e gentle lapping of the waves to e distant roar of the ocean, it speaks with many voices if one takes the time to listen. it speaks of depth and serenity... beneath e rolling tumble of e surf, it rumbles in a tone of age old wisdom. peace...
I feel relaxed... e tentacles of anxiety wrapped with cluthing ferocity around my brain release a tiny fraction of its hold. Ever so slowly, slowly... reluctantly freeing my mind to drift peacefully on e waters of harmony.
The sea is therapeutic. Often i wish i could breathe normally in water, free from e contraptions of snorkles or e constrain of having to come up to the surface for air. I wish also that i could swim smoothly, to be able to glide nonchalantly through e waters and make them my home...... if wishes came true, heaven would be crowded *wry smile* :P
I love e sea...
It is a being of mystery n bounty. calm n still one moment, violent n raging the next. Yet all we see is but a ripple on e surface... an illusion within a dream... rarely does e temperaments of e surface affect e deeper regions of e sea. Beneath where all is dark and still, currents tugging the patterns of life, e sea holds wonders upon wonders, mysteries upon mere myths of our imagination.
The sea fascinates me...
Left alone, i could stare for hours upon hours at e waves, entranced by e ripples playing across e surface... e white wreaths of foam dancing over e crests of e waters... no two waves are the same. They rise... and fall. Constantly changing in the shimmering rays of light, in touch with the slightest shift of wind or temperature...
But they are untroubled... They simply exist, moving with the greater, embracing the weaker... Oh but that i were a creature of the sea!
Sun - 22/6/2003 - 9.30am (12.30pm s'pore)
It's been raining, no, storming through the night. It seems we've arrived at an unfortunate time, e monsoon season. Unfortunate for some maybe... I adore storms... ;)
The sea is choppy, surging up n down unevenly beneath the open balcony i sit on. Our water bungalow (an extremely tiny 1room 1toilet bungalow) is thrust out of e beach such that e balcony rests atop wooden piers, with e water swishing beneath. Sitting here facing out, one can almost imagine being alone on an island, gazing outwards at e immeasurable sea, waiting for a ship to come.... almost. :P
There are no ships out now that i can see... just e endless horizon broken by patches of insignificant islands. The sea looks excited today... more restless than the interminable calm of yesterday. right before me, e waters are a pale greenish blue. nearly crystal clear but for e pearly-white bubbles breaking the surface. further out, e colour has deepened into a beautiful turquoise, giving way to dark shadows of blue as it recedes from shore.
Still further, all i can see is e shadow of a bird gliding low over e racing white horses of spray. even this, fades into nothingness as e steely-blue sea touches e fairer gray-blue sky, far in e distance.
I sit here, alone, with e cool wind caressing my skin and e splashes n music of e waves a soothing buffer to my thoughts, breathing e fresh air... no pollution, no stink, sweet clean air entering my lungs n giving life to my body, uplifting my soul with its purity...
Beautiful.
Cheng would love surfing these waves in his kayak. Sea sports club would enjoy this tremendously.... I know i'd have been happier were my friends here with me. Less at peace, definitely, n more cluttered... but happier :) :)
The night sky here is exquisite as well... a cloak of enigmatic velvet sprinkled carelessly with sparkling diamonds... the stars adorning the dark splendor of night while e shadow of e universe enhances e beauty of each unique pinprick of light that we call 'star'. The open balcony, a place for romance and sweet bonding and love... *thinks li-fi* ;)
I wish he were here...
Sun - 22/6/2003 - 1.05pm (4.05pm s'pore)
I HATE it when ppl tell me what to do... I absolutely hate it..!!
I value independence highly... instruct me if you must, or advise me... but DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!! *growl*...
breathe... relax... feel e wind... better. :)
ugh. my mind is all wound up... played chess w papa juz now... lost :P hah... my chess is terrible. am not a very strategically cunning person... in fact, i'm neither strategic nor cunning... lol. i'm not a lot of things for that matter... so what am i??
lazy irresponsible ignorant dense stupid gullible ugly fat thoughtless earthly unneeded unwanted greedy possessive selfish...
The list goes on.
Mon - 23/6/2003 - 12.50pm (3.50pm s'pore)
We're leaving tonight... I can't believe it! Time flies unbelievably fast!! :( :( :( I'd stay here forever if not for my friends... :P still, this visit has been good... i feel much more.. centred you could say, more at ease with myself surely :)
Haha, just had to run back into my room to seek refuge fr e rain... its been raining on n off since yesterday... don't think we'll be able to go reef snorkling after all :P
The winds were whipping up a frenzy last night. They were seriously howling their gusty hearts out! And i, snug in a chair doing math, silently observed our drying clothes tossing about e railing n contemplated over how strong e wind was to be able to snatch my underwear away into e night... before papa called n told mi to bring e washing in. lol...
a thrill of fear and trepedition...
my feelings while out on e open balcony, collecting what's left of e clothes, revelling in but a fraction of nature's terrifying strength.
I came in just in time. The rain started pouring with a vengence, battering angrily at our closed doors as if offensive at finding them there, warning us that it could tear down e walls with ease had it cared to... The wind carried it. It's partner in crime, slashing it almost horizontally through e air, so hard tt it formed a large pool of water from e crack 'neath e door... still, but expanding outwards steadily, as if awaiting orders from it's reckless, powerful entity without.
The rain's stopped now... e skies are a deceptively calm blend of white n blue. Godpa juz called to say e reef snorkling has indeed been called off. sigh... another afternoon doing math for mi :P
and maldives is no more...
8:32 PM